Life of a Gamer (Arrigo C Hutajulu)

This written he dedicated for me, 'bout the story of us. It's so beautiful and i really love it. Enjoy!
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Yes, I am a gamer. Sometimes people think that gamers only think about the games, and have no life. They tend to forget anything as soon as they touch the controller or the mouse and keyboard. They don’t feel hungry, thirsty or even pain as they play the game, blend with their game characters, and they become one person.

Well, for me, that is not completely wrong. Those statements sometimes work for me as well. I play a lot of games, and I tend to forget everything when I play. I have no life? Not really. All of those games, racing games, shooting games, role-playing games, or any other game genres, are just very little parts of one huge game, a huge role-playing multiplayer game that is called "Life". Yes, I see my life as a game, with me as the main character, and three billion other players that are ready to interact with me, help me, or maybe making things more challenging. I can do many things in this game, from simple things like showering and eating, to complicated ones like changing the world or something like that. It all depends on me, and the game designers.

In Life, there are many quests to finish. Quests for glory, quests for wealth, quests for happiness, and also, quests for love. I picked the quest of love, to find a player that would be The One for my Life. The One that can give me an enormous amount of help to finish my other quests, and vice versa. And more importantly, The One that completes my Life. I have met many players, starting and finishing quests, but I cannot find who The One that I am looking for is.

Suddenly, she appeared.

I didn't know why we met. We were just two random players bumping into each other on the way to finish our quest for knowledge. We helped each other, as we helped and were helped by 18 other players as a team to finish the quest. But as the time goes by, somehow, I felt different. I felt like the game designers had arranged our meeting just for one reason. To give me The One, the perfect one to help me complete all my quests and make my Life perfect. Yes, she is perfection. A masterpiece. A wonderful player for me to do all the things in Life.

And there is this one problem.

We have a different job, and our jobs aren't even close. It's like I am a tank driver, and she is a sniper. Every player in the game knows that a tank driver needs a mechanic, and a sniper needs a spotter. We have everything we needed to finish the quest, except this. If it is the only one barrier between us, why does it have to be this? Give me two, three, or even ten other barriers; I can break them one by one. But this, this is much more complicated. Other players said, "there are many better players out there, and they are mechanics", "you know that you two cannot form a team", or "just reset your job and be a spotter for her". It is easier said than done. I cannot simply do what they say. You must feel this way if you have the same situation.

I spent my days thinking. Sometimes I denied this situation and thought "this can't be happening." Sometimes, the anger kicked in and went "this must be the game designers' faults. Screw you, designers!" I also tried to bargain with the designers, "I can drive my tank to pull all enemies' attentions to me, and she can shoot freely." I probably got depressed one day and just thought "I can't go on with my life if someday I lose you." And you readers know what's the next step -- acceptance. Accept that she is not The One I am looking for, accept the storyline and go on with other quests.

No.

I don’t want to accept that.

I want to fight. Fight the storyline and create my own story. Fight all the words of other players that said this is not going to work for me. I don’t care. I don’t give a shit about what other players said. This is my storyline. This is my Life. I just do whatever I can to protect her from enemies, to help her with her quest as she does the same for me. Pretend that she is The One, pretend to forget the barriers between us, pretend that we have the same job. Yes, I may sound stupid, and yes, I may look stupid, but I just believe I am doing the right thing for now, and hope that it is really the right thing. I don't know what will we get from this seems-to-be-impossible situation, but if we do things right and say our hopes to the game designers, maybe someday we will find a Cave of Wonders, a Well of Wishes, Fountain of Magic or whatever it is said, that will provide a thing we really needed, a cure for our condition. A Miracle.

Well, that was the best ending. But what about if we just can’t find the Miracle and eventually have to accept the storyline? If that is the case, I can do nothing. I will surely look stupid in front of other players for trying to break the storyline, and it is going to be a hard time, but I don’t care. We do everything we can, and it’s much better than just quit the quest without doing anything at all. Everything I go through with her, whether she is The One for me or not, is a little Miracle.

And at the end of the game, I can look back, and smile upon all the things I have done in my "Life".

Especially with you, Afina Putri.

Arrigo C Hutajulu

“When there is hope, there is faith. When there is faith, miracles happen”